If they tell you...

If they tell you...

You are a bleeding heart.

Tell them...

At least my hearts alive.

If they hate you...

For the fact you have ideals.

Love them...

For being easier to defeat.

If they humliate you...

For feeling pain not yours.

Smile at them...

Empowered by joy borrowed.

If they harm you...

Because they think you're weak.

Stand back up...

Because you know they are afraid.

If it should go dark...

Because we neglect our hearts.

Shine like brilliance...

Because that's whom you are.





To the reader,that's about you :)

Sleeping habits.

Something has to give and it ethier my sanity or a regimented sleeping pattern I am not a betting man which is good as the odds don't feel to great for ethier horse.

I don't even think this song is that much of a new tune for me to sing it's certain that being asleep at the right times isn't something I feel comfertable with but it is something that I have to do so that I can do the things I need to do.

...and I have tooth ache,I am a little afraid of dentist but that's a poor excuse everyone is to a degree,well unless you have hollywood teeth.

Oh I know I promised this blog would be a place about me moaning about my stuff I suppose that makes me the lamest rebel alive,swap Marlon Brando with a skinny,unsure pale Englishman and the Norton with an oyster card and you kind of get the picture of the type of rebel I am. I sometimes place my forehead against my reflection and stare at myself just wondering why I don't have a clue or if I do and I just don't know what clues look like.

I need to write this however because the whole idea is that I can look back at this and see where I have come from and see that I am able to lift myself up from being down. The blog as a whole reads up and down,it's quite insightful and I am glad I didn't put a total ban of mentioning my private life on here as well...there is a degree of sucsess there.

Hope is something I always hold onto and life can't wrestle that from my hands and I dearly wish for that to be true for you the reader(all 3 of you...well I say three but the ratings arn't in yet :P ).

Maybe in a new series of Cracker Robbie Coltrane could use blogs as a method to gain a phsycological sense of anatomy for his suspect.

Mind you it would be a short episdoe if there was only one entry written that read:

"I done dem murders and kilt all dem people...signed Tony Bobbed"

Yeah well you may have not laughed but an attempt at a sense of humour drags you through the dregs of cyclic depression ;)

Have a good night/day.

Tribute.

Rest In Peace [i]Andrea Waddell[/i] a former nieghbour and a person who cared for others and the enviroment around her.

Taken in the cruelest manner but now in a place where no cruelty exsists:

In the time that past...

...I managed to pass my massage course and I was sent the certificates through the post but not before I started to panic as to weather they would reach me AT ALL!

However they did and now I have a skill that I am unsure as to how I can get into the work place with,there are ways but I don't have my own place yet and there is a massive slump in the jobs market.

I should be getting some sort of practice but it's been more difficult than you would imagine :/

What you have to remember.

I think it's important to know that your feelings are only justified for yourself,don't think for one second another feels the same.

You can never assume,it's an unfair practice you have to be careful you have to be aware. Expect to be in trouble if you let yourself feel too much because those warm waters can grow cool and make you feel ill.

Neevr wallow.

Always feel secure in being a fool because living means falling and fooling encourges this.

I think the worst piece of advice I was ever given was..."be yourself".

Spellin aynd grammar....!?

I have been reading my blog and it has come to my attention that at times it hurts to read it because of all the damn spelling errors and poor grammar.

I am working on this as I like to call myself a writer(but you probably call me something else) so I think I better act a bit more like one :/

NOT on these Shores.

BNP and all you kin be of no unsure mind or confused state that you prey on this country with insidious means and employing tools of treachery
Your party inflates social demons with your gaseous speeches that serve only one purpose,to drive exhilarated fear in the hearts of Britain's people like a super-fuel into the engine of a motorcar.

If you can get us to loathe and despair those different from us and those in the minority in this nation because of your self created beasts your spoils are panic stricken votes submitted by people who believe in the deluded notion that you can withdraw a fictional poison which would sooth or ills.

The BNP swirl illusions that they are the vanguard of a moral vision,that they foster a dream that only the true grain of Britain's wholesome bread consists of.
If this thin veneer is what you the voter is fooled by be prepared for the bleak bitter taste of intolerance to wash back up and the members of the party to vomit black tidal waves of freezing,constricting totalitarian vomit.